I'm taking a page from Buddhists by purposefully refusing to fill up that yearning. Not like I could do it anyways, I have no friends and no money and barely any family or time.
I do things that make my soul whole. Like spend time with my kids and just absolutely fuck around on a computer terminal. The soul does not need money, nor power, nor standardized progress of any kind.
Lots of hope honestly I suppose, still, somehow. Working on music, spacing out to music, reading, cycling, basking in the sun or staring at the clouds, watching what the animals are doing, a bit jealous of their simple life, cooking up a good meal, psychedelics (though not so much lately), weed, gratitude everyday.
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I don’t really. My career gives me purpose which makes it fade temporarily while I’m busy or tired.. Some days I just couch rot to build up my energy to be purposeful and lessen the awareness of it. It feels like accepting it and working with it is more realistic for me.
I know a couple places with cheap sailing club memberships. One works out to about $30 per month, but you can volunteer for a free membership, and another is just $75 a year. Maybe you can find something like that, and if not, then consider just moving to a new city.
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The trick with Kubernetes clusters is to build and run cool, free open source services for yourself and others, because you're passionate about solving problems with tech! It's hard to do that at work because usually work is just exploitation of customers mixed with exploitation of workers and it all feels shitty. Of course, we all have to survive somehow, so do what you gotta do, but don't hate the tech.
I think I'm passionate about helping people use technology effectively. Recently (years) it's been difficult to find specific software interesting. But I will jump at a request to help a friend with their computer.
I've got a home server but it's mostly just for Jellyfin, and it's just in Docker because i'm lazy 😅.
Kubernetes is neat, but most companies that use it are large corporations. It's been difficult to find a place where I can use my powers for good. I just need a six figure job where I help old ladies use e-mail.
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in reply to Gonzako • • •I try to make things when I feel a yearning or emptiness. Baking, painting, writing, anything that I can make with my hands.
And drugs of course.
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Sometimes I open the hearts of all living things and let their true nature out
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And sailing. And memes of course.
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I think I'm passionate about helping people use technology effectively. Recently (years) it's been difficult to find specific software interesting. But I will jump at a request to help a friend with their computer.
I've got a home server but it's mostly just for Jellyfin, and it's just in Docker because i'm lazy 😅.
Kubernetes is neat, but most companies that use it are large corporations. It's been difficult to find a place where I can use my powers for good. I just need a six figure job where I help old ladies use e-mail.
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